Female Inution
Women have that instinct where they will tell you not to do something because it doesn’t ‘feel’ right. Logically it won’t make sense but trust it anyway. Trusting it doesn’t mean that you don’t do that thing. It just means you consider it as a truth statement and predict a high possiblity of an event that is not in your favor.
For the last few months, I have been ignoring this instinct. And whenever I ignore it, life reminds me why I shouldn’t.
When I was in Bangalore, a friend took an overnight bus to come and meet me. Now for some reason when I was getting ready to meet her, I ‘felt’ that I shouldn’t go. I ignored it saying, ‘I can’t live in the fear of something will happen. Even if something happens, we will deal with it.’
That night ended with me in excruciating pain, curled up and crying at 2 AM. I had my biggest medical scare of my life that day. Bigger than all the stiches in my life.
I should have learned my lesson by now. But no, when I was coming home for Diwali, I sprained both my ankles at the airport. Not one but two — I am that talented. Stayed home for a month. The left ankle healed but the right one was still work in progress when I left for Delhi.
Now the day before I was supposed to leave, something told me I shouldn’t go, “It doesn’t feel right.” I listened to that voice and almost cancelled my bookings at 5 in the morning. But then I thought, ‘Fuck that, if I want to go. I will go. Come what may, I will sail through.’
Now the time has indeed come for sailing because the right ankle that wasn’t healed completly, I sprained it again yesterday. Now the question is do I continue with my journey or go back home?
Thankfully, my insticts are not saying anything now and I am just excited for the rest of the things to unfold. Only precaution I will be taking is to take better care of legs and myself.
I don’t always ignore my intution, in fact I listen to it more often than not and it has always worked out in miraculous way. These last few months I have been gambling my choices with my intution. Sometimes I listen to it, other times I am just curious, ‘what can happen?’
I never gamble those choices with people though. If I sense the slightest bit of deception in someone, I don’t indulge them (unless of course, I am curious about ‘why the deception?’). Because come what may, I can sail through. But it gets easier and fun with the right people around.